DO I FEEL SEXY?

SRSLY?!

I feel like I'm in the verge of entering adulthood, and women in this century seems to be obliged to look sexy. Okay, so I'm not that old. But I'm starting to embrace the fact that I'm no longer that 15-year old girl who has never owned a lip balm. It's when you realize that heeey I'm becoming a woman, ooooh fuuuun. And being a woman must live up to the qualities of a legit sophisticated, refined and sexy woman. Yuh huh.. sexy. You gotta feel sexy! And do I feel sexy? Am I sexy? Hmm? 

Okay so yea. We're all beautiful, like what they normally say that you're beautiful in your own ways blah blah blah. But feeling sexy and being sexy is not a piece of cake. Not because I wear two-piece swimsuit (with reasonable cover-up) at the beach doesn't mean that I think that I'm sexy. It's hard to feel sexy and comfortable at the same time.

The answer for that is NOOOO. I don't feel sexy.

So do I have to try to feel sexy to be sexy? Or should I just get someone to say that I'm sexy to believe that ooooh I'm now Ms. Sexy Pants. Every other morning (heehee it's not a routine), I would go for 20 minute exercise bike and few minutes on the treadmill while watching Fashion Police or Keeping up with the Kardashians (this happens in my house and heck no I won't get a gym membership). Why would I do that? I WANT TO FEEL SEXY after that feeling ko pagod na pagod na ko workout. And every after that short time of burning my butt off, I look in the mirror and feel "WHAT?! I RAN FOR 5 MINUTES FOR NOTHING!? I MEAN, LOOK AT THAT! WHAT KIND OF BODY IS THAT?!"

I'm not putting this topic out there because I want people to see me as a sexy goddess. NO! I feel like embracing that you're utterly sexy is one step to building up your self-confidence. So maybe being sexy is in the eye of the beholder. I don't know.

Eh. Whatever.