Newsflash: Haven't felt the 'kilig' feeling for quite some time!
Well that's kind of a bit shocker. I don't know why, but since the start of my 2nd year in college, suddenly 'kilig' and 'in love' poofed out of my vocabulary. Why so? Thus, I kind of prayed to let no guy enter my life just yet for I just can't bear another heartache. And so, God gave me an answered prayer. Oh my Father, I knew I could always count on you! :) But somehow, I miss feeling that I-can-hear-the-bells-when-I-see-him feeling. I miss receiving "Good morning <3" and "Good night <3" text messages. I miss spilling my "kiligness eklavu" to my girlfriends. I miss being distracted whenever I study for exams just because I think about him every single time. I haven't had that lately, which is a good and somehow bad thing though. Well, sure, I am loved by my friends, parents, whoever, but hey I want to feel 'in love' for the nth time around. I want the words 'kilig' and 'in love' to poof back to my vocabulary. I've been struggling to deal with things lately, so I kind of want to have someone who'll say that "Everything will turn out fine. I believe in you." Someone who will give me a tight long hug when fate goes rough on me. Someone who will make me cry for laughing out so hard. I just need someone to make me feel that I am LOVED.
Where are art thou, my knight in shining leather shoes? It is I, Rachel, waiting for you to turn my blues into a kaleidoscopic rainbow. Please love me for who I am not who I can be. Love, big word huh? One big word you'll never regret of feeling.
P.S.
I'm not searching for a boyfriend.. just someone.
xoxo,
Rachel
