Just when I thought I was just catching up with Awkward episodes, it made me reflect on how I'm dealing with rejections I got over the past months. Jenna, in the 14th episode of season 4, found out that she didn't got in to SCU. The university that Tamara and her made a college future together and where her Dad went to college. As every senior who applied in SCU got their acceptance letter through e-mail, Jenna got otherwise. It's one of those days when you got a devastating news that could change your future that'll need you to rewrite your plans and make new ones all over again. It sucks. And everyone around you judges you for your failures. It may be one of the shittiest days in your life.
"Sometimes, things don't work out the way you want no matter how badly you want them to. It doesn't matter if you work your ass off you give an amazing interview or you have an alum parent. You still get rejected, okay? And that's just the way it is, it happens to everyone and I'm sorry but I just can't help it." -Jenna
My thoughts exactly. When you get rejected for more than ten times in a job interview, it just keeps getting better! No matter how you pour yourself out to sell everything you got, if it's not meant to be, it won't happen. But you still goes after it because you badly want it and you just can't see yourself doing anything but that.
Conversation between Jenna and her favorite author (who graduated from SCU) Samantha Perry...
S: I know you're bummed you didn't get in to SCU. But here's the silver lining, all the pain you are feeling will feel you writing.
J: But how much pain does a writer supposed to take?
S: A lot. Being a professional writer is a freaking nightmare. It's filled with never-ending rejections. Only an insane person would pursue it. But guess what, I didn't have a choice. Telling stories is the only way I know how to make sense to the world around me. Don't you feel the same way?
Well, would you look at that. I'm writing because of the pain all those rejections brought. On a ride home from my recent job interview, I thought of a perfect blog post and I would title it 11 Times a Charm. I would write the journey to my eleven job interviews from different companies and the reasons why I thought I didn't get in. That would be make a loooooong blog post and I know it would be very painful. But hey, it got my writing.
Convo between Matty and Jenna...
J: Matty, I didn't get in to SCU.
M: Aww. I'm sorry. I think they got their answers out somewhere because they toss a coin. Come on. You even haven't heard from the best schools yet. And you know what? I really think you dodged the bullet.
J: Why?
M: Dude, have you seen their school mascot? It's a freakin' moth! How embarrassing is that?
And even through those shitty days, there will always be people who will cheer you up and keep you to move forward. I'm blessed that I have family and friends who can be my Matty McKibben.
"It was then that I realized rejection is easier to accept when you're honest with yourself about the reasons why." - Jenna
Finally, here's what a sophomore, who Jenna recently had New Year's midnight kiss session with, has to say about rejection.
"You know what, you can't let some dumb people on a college acceptance board have total control over your feelings. I've been told no more times that I can count, like pretty recently. So yea, you know, it sucks for a minute but then, I get a feeling that it'll all work out. I'm just not gonna stop going for the things I want, so you shouldn't either, okay?" - Owen
Okay. :)
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